Who I am
I am what I call a doer. If there's a problem, I want to solve it. If someone is in need, I want to help them. When life comes to a crossroads or throws a curveball, the first thing I’m trying to do is figure out what I need to do now. That may not seem like a problem. There's no wrong here. If your trying to find the grievance, you might be a doer as well. As a doer, my first instant is to do. But as a follower of Jesus, my first instant needs to be to seek. I long to do good works for others, but is doing what I think is good always the right thing to do? I’m a world changer. I don't say that to be boastful. It’s something that I had to get used to, and it wasn't easy or pretty. But this inner journey that I’m on reveals to me who God has created me to be. Acceptance of that is where I am now, and it’s challenging and freeing all at the same time. Anyhow, it’s the world-changer in me that has produced the doer. This overwhelming urge to change the world sets fire to the doer spirit and what I want to do. But who is directing, and in who’s authority am I doing? Am I Following God’s will or My Plan? I’m learning to tame the doer and instead promote the seeker. The seeker in me seeks God's direction and instruction before doing. I have to admit this is still new for me, and sometimes, in the urge to want to help, I still forget to seek first. I still leap to do the good I want to do before checking if it's God’s will or my plan. But the Father’s grace is sufficient. That’s what it all comes down to for me: God’s will or my plan.
Romans 12:2. I have decided to follow Jesus, and in that decision, a lot of me needs to come subject to His will and way.
I say this to bring attention to our people-pleasing mentally. We want social media followers, and nowadays, I keep hearing this idea of building a legacy. Not that either is wrong, but in my doing in this world, I’m learning I must first seek the Lord so that my good works are also God's work, which are the only works that amount to anything in the end. 1 John 2:16-17
The Bottom Line A little practicality for you. You should know by now I’m always asking myself hard questions. I need to get to the truth of the matters. I’m asking myself why do I have the urge to do this? Where is the desire coming from? Sometimes we do because someone does something for us. Don’t even the sinners do that? Sometimes we do it out of obligation.
The bottom line is if we are not doing it out of selfless love, our works will be burned up in the fire. 1 Corinthians 3:13.
I want my works to be for Love from Love. Seeking the source of all love before I do is the only way to guarantee my works will not be in vain. This is not easy, but I believe it’s necessary, and we’ll fall short sometimes; thankfully, God’s grace is enough. Besides, I’m going to do; but I need to make sure I do God's will and not my plan.